How we’ve made sense of our reality….
I remember so clearly the moment I saw some light in my darkness. it was just a flicker, Danny and I were driving in the car. He turned to me and said “I want to start a foundation in IzzyJanes name.” I was in the middle of one of my many melt downs, and I stopped, “what?” I asked. “Ya! I want to help families that have to go through this. Many families have gone through it and unfortunately many will ahead of us and I want to help them.”
That’s when I saw HOPE for the first time.
I have never really needed as much HOPE in my life as I need and rely on it now. But I saw it. It was like it fluttered by. That afternoon we were sitting on my sister Jeni’s back porch, our “happyplace” and once again I was in a middle of a breakdown, Danny turned to me and whispered “Do you see that? A big yellow butterfly has been flying around us all afternoon. I think its IzzyJane”.
I stopped crying once again and smiled, a true smile.
From that moment on I knew that’s what we needed to do. We needed something to help us start to heal. We need to help as many families as we can, so that they too will see Hope in their future.
We came up with the name FlutterBy IzzyJane. It reminds us of that day when the butterfly was fluttering by us all day long. It reminds us of how soft and precious our IzzyJane is. We have created forever bracelets for the moms and babies that are donated them to Utah based hospitals. When we think of what really meant the most to us while we had our brief moments with our sweet IzzyJane, it was knowing that we wore matching bracelets forever. She is ours forever, she will be in our hearts forever, we know she is with us forever. FOREVER. As a mother, I touch, see, and feel my bracelet daily, never taking it off and like IzzyJane, these forever bracelets are a part of me forever. For all the moms that have suffered this pain you are all apart of me. For the moms that haven’t yet gone through this and unfortunately it happens to 1 out of 160 pregnancies, We hope to give you some comfort. We hope to Flutterby and give you some ease with the financial burial costs. With the money that we raise we are able to purchase more bracelets to be donated, as well as help pay for the unexpected and brutal burial cost. We want to Flutterby like our IzzyJane did to us and to help others that are feeling this same pain.